[He closes the door, and when the words leave Kieren's mouth he looks away. He had apologized to Jem, yes, but he also had mixed feelings over the parts of it he'd meant. He feels torn, honestly, pulled in two different directions, asked to do something he's not sure he can, and afraid Kieren wants him to make nice with his sister to a degree he likely won't be able to.

He wonders if Kieren will walk out the door if he says 'no.' Which means that, even if it has no chance of fixing anything, he has to tell Kieren things he hasn't, that he doesn't really want to, some of them are things no one knows.

Turning, he leans against the door, forcing himself to look at Kieren, into his pretty face and beautiful brown eyes. It's usually never hard to look at him, but if he leaves...]

I'm sorry for bringing it up, for dragging it out, there was no point-- I just got angry. But... I don't think I'd be sorry at all if she wasn't your sister, if she didn't know you, because there's that line between the things I believe and you. But I still-- [he closes his eyes, he can't lie to Kieren, and he shouldn't keep things from him, not things like this. He'd kept the knives from him, and he knows that didn't turn out so well.] Still don't know if I'll ever be able to forgive her, or think she's not... what I said.

[He meets Kieren's gaze, speaking before he has a chance to be rebuked.]

Before you leave or kick me out, since this is your place, if you're going to-- [His voice shakes at the prospect of it.] Will you give m a chance to explain myself? Please? There's things I haven't told you.