( it's the nervousness in simon's voice that really hammers this in for kieren, because it isn't very often that he hears his boyfriend sounding so...unsure of himself. especially not when he's so used to speaking with such passion and energy. )
It's not that I don't care about you. I do. It's just --
( he has to think about this, has to pick his words carefully. )
I don't want you to change your mind just because I tell you to. That sounds like a terrible relationship. I just don't want you to put me on some kind of pedestal and realize later that I'm not...what you thought I was. Because you were right, I am alive now. And things are sort of different.
(and, well. this is something kieren knows he has to say. but that doesn't make it any less difficult. )
When I said I'd been seeing some people in the past, that was sort of...not the whole story. I mean, it was but -- I was sort of seeing them up until you got here, and then I broke it off with them. I felt like a really terrible person for a while, liking more than one person. But apparently that's -- well, not normal, but...it happens. And it's alright.
voice;
It's not that I don't care about you. I do. It's just --
( he has to think about this, has to pick his words carefully. )
I don't want you to change your mind just because I tell you to. That sounds like a terrible relationship. I just don't want you to put me on some kind of pedestal and realize later that I'm not...what you thought I was. Because you were right, I am alive now. And things are sort of different.
(and, well. this is something kieren knows he has to say. but that doesn't make it any less difficult. )
When I said I'd been seeing some people in the past, that was sort of...not the whole story. I mean, it was but -- I was sort of seeing them up until you got here, and then I broke it off with them. I felt like a really terrible person for a while, liking more than one person. But apparently that's -- well, not normal, but...it happens. And it's alright.